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- Aida The Pink Goddess
- Life has taught me a lot about never to put hope on anything but ALLAH. Because when it turns out otherwise, the pain is unbearable. What crashed my past can never crash my present. Please do not use my photos without my permission. AidaThePinkGoddess™ © 2010 all rights reserved
Friday, January 14, 2011
I am feeling under now and I don't know whether I am supposed to feel that way. I have never been in this state of jealousy before. Does it make us a bad person if we envy over others' people happiness? But I can't help,not that I am not thankful of what I have but as much as I struggle to deny the feelings, I pretend to look ok. Maybe my life is so ordinary, even small things can make me green and over reacting. But the thing is, it is not small.
My colleagues just got their bonus today and there I am, feeling soooo casted away when they are all flaunting their letter of issue and start planning from vacation, white veil occasion, Eiffel tower, koala, Beijing, to the high end SLR. The most I could do is smile. "Oh I am happy for them" Not. Well, thanks a lot for the empathy, when they stop talking about bonus and change to other topic when I join the conversation, but you know what ?It vexes me even more!
If you had to ask, I haven't served the tenure for one year, thats why.... :'(
Approved by Aida The Pink Goddess at 9:43 PM