I am feeling under now and I don't know whether I am supposed to feel that way. I have never been in this state of jealousy before. Does it make us a bad person if we envy over others' people happiness? But I can't help,not that I am not thankful of what I have but as much as I struggle to deny the feelings, I pretend to look ok. Maybe my life is so ordinary, even small things can make me green and over reacting. But the thing is, it is not small.
My colleagues just got their bonus today and there I am, feeling soooo casted away when they are all flaunting their letter of issue and start planning from vacation, white veil occasion, Eiffel tower, koala, Beijing, to the high end SLR. The most I could do is smile. "Oh I am happy for them" Not. Well, thanks a lot for the empathy, when they stop talking about bonus and change to other topic when I join the conversation, but you know what ?It vexes me even more!
If you had to ask, I haven't served the tenure for one year, thats why.... :'(
7 chemistry(s):
sabar dood.. nx will be your turn.
i think organization msia should give bonus to all their employees, regardless dah serve sampei setaun ke tidak. i mean, if bonus ya 1 month pay, for those yang sik sampey setaun, but baruk half year keja, then berik la 1/2 month juak... sik adil bah. my husband pon kenak benda yg sm..
yalah pa, terkebil2 jak mata sy nangga cdak, ada yg dpt sampey 3 months!! mati juak, but I feel better now that I vented it out in my blog to my dear readers and know that I am not alone. yalah rezeki mun bukan kt pun, nang bukan kt pun oh :)
sabar jak aida.. ada tu rezeki thn dpn. anyway stuju ngn PL, at least ada prorate pn ok. xde la org rasa tsisih
tu lah shiba, rasa demotivateee betul and tiba2 annoyed tgk colleague, bukan benci, tp annoyed.hahaha
sbr kak..rezeki ada di mana2 bah...dont worry,be happy.. :)
nuwuk: thanks!
welcome kak.. :)
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