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- Aida The Pink Goddess
- Life has taught me a lot about never to put hope on anything but ALLAH. Because when it turns out otherwise, the pain is unbearable. What crashed my past can never crash my present. Please do not use my photos without my permission. AidaThePinkGoddess™ © 2010 all rights reserved
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
I know this is too embarrassing to be revealed but I'll do it somehow. he. This morning, I was called by my immediate boss to her room for a pep talk, she opened up to me and she said she had somehow observed me and said that I looked sad and unfocus. I unhesitantly nod to every word she uttered. I admitted to her I am not able to focus 100% towards my work for the fact that my heart is not here. She said she could feel me as she is a mother and a wife and during her early years in the service she was also pregnant but she was not departed from her husband, so my case is rather worse.
My boss is a very empathic and nice lady, so she did advised me not to feel too stress as it can affect my baby as I am still in the early stage of my pregnancy. She even said only come to her for work if I am ready and calm enough. It seems light to others but it's worth the end of the world for me. My sister, my friends and even my superiors are super duper nice and they have treated me wonderfully. It's just me who just can't digest the reality just yet. I really miss my husband, I miss his company, now that he just commenced his work, I felt very departed.
I did a little reflection on what are the factors of my endless grieve, and it appears to me that I want to be near to my husband, he is where my home is, I need not to relocate but as long as he is by my side, it'd be heavenly. No matter how people tell me that they are so in my shoes, I APPRECIATE it, but it's always harder on the bearer. I hope this turmoil will cease soon so I can carry my child happily and be a fair mother to him/her.
Perhaps this can cheer me up for the time being? :P
Approved by Aida The Pink Goddess at 1:00 AM