Ayra & Mommy go pinky

One hue missed the list! It's pink! But too bad, daddy is not around to don the color, so it's only Ayra & Mommy lah! hehe

 

Raya oh yeah!

Salaaam, I bet everyone is still carried away with the Eid Spirit, me too. Big sis and b had already resumed their routine leaving me, Ayra and my parents in Kuching! How can!This year, it is my turn to celebrate in Kuching. I pre-warned b about Sarawakian 'rules' celebrating raya, one of them, full suited Baju Melayu for at least 7 days, ahahh. B being submissive, prepared himself (according to him) the most baju Melayu he ever had for Hari Raya, so we had a colorful raya as a result. he, Surely we had fun, how's yours?

taupe

Grey & yellow

On the 2nd day of raya, the plan was initially to visit our wedding OP to re-print some of our wedding pics, he ended up giving us complimentary family photo! Yeeehaaa!!

Counting days

Aidilfitr is just days away, am still at my office completing the last kopek, we will return to Kch on eve of hari Raya, because B can only be free by then., and he's not keen of me handling Ayra alone should I go back earlier. We had pre-raya photoshoot last night, tradition. Happy Raya & Holiday to all my readers, have a safe journey back to kampung and maaf zahir & batin :)

Pink Ayra Maysaa?

Knowing me, feminine is my middle name, pink, frills, lace, ruffles, ribbons, flowers describe me best. When it comes to Ayra, people expect me to do the same since the moment they knew I bore a girl. But they are wrong. Ironically, I actually loath girls who are too girly, in my defense, I am not too girly, I just love pink. So I want to sideline the obvious for Ayra, I want her to be the simplest, less is more, laid back type of lady, you know, hipster kind. Furthermore, according to B, girls who loves pink are usually gedik. Sorry that you are married to one B. :/

Ayra is not the baby with thick lock, so she is mistaken to be a baby boy everytime. And my sister always complain that I never dress Ayra up like a girl, a real baby girl, with dress, headbands and such. So yesterday, I decided to play dress up with Ayra. She's thriving now, so most of her girly2 attire fit her already.

Ayra, all ready for iftar

Few minutes later,....

ya ku malas.........

Our Ramadhan so far

I just got back from my 2 days travelling in kl. We had our final critics session for our case study workshop, remember i went to felda sungkai and had my skirt entangled? Yup, it has approached its finale and we are assesed for what we have produced. Similar to viva we had in uni.

This is also my 1st time being apart from my sugarball and I have to admit it ain't easy, I keep thinking about her while I am not!got it? Her videos and pics shares by b and her aunties triggered my tears everytime.

In other note about my critics session, my turn was scheduled in the 1st day, means I am free on the next day, such a perfect time for a retail therapy as big sis is on leave :)

Seriously i dont look forward to any outstation stints for the time being.

yesterday's Iftar, my cupcake is 2 months 2weeks old at present.

Ramadhon 2012

It's the last day before we celebrate the holy Ramadhon tomorrow, my first experience fasting with a baby and on our own. I hope I have fun fasting while compensating my amal. Happy ramadhon to all my readers and hope you guys have a blissful one too!

Working Mommy

This is my first week working after my maternity leave. Towards the end of it and embracing Ramadhan we are in 2 days time. Alhamdulillah, things are not as difficult as I expected but can't deny by the end of the day, if I were a battery, my power is already alarming red. Maybe because Ayra's babysitter is at my workplace make the whole things easier. Alhamdulillah. By noon I visit Ayra and I can see her laughing and cooing , which somehow make me sad, because at night, Ayra usually sleeps after feeding, means I miss her active phase :( (seriously I ever thought quitting because I want to exclusively take care of her) apakan daya, bapak kaya mak mentega. uhuk2....

Work wise, stacking and piling up like I expected. Now I have lost my 'shield', I can't get away with the pregnant reason anymore. But I still can manage but sometimes there's glitch here and there as I'm running my responsibility as a working mother and wife. I salute all working mothers out there and I envy all housewives. 

Heels...after so many months not wearing them, they make me look like walking with both left feet, having a hard time adjusting to heels..

This kind tudung most of the time now, no time to iron mengiron and lilit melilit..

My Ayra just turned 2 months last week. So far she's doing fine, I hope she remains as an easy baby as she is always.

going for her 2 month jab

<3 u so so much my little munchkin!

Hope working mothers out there can share your experience/system. :)

Ayra to babysitter

I have started sending Ayra to her babysitter since two days ago. I haven't started working yet but I want both Ayra and the babysitter to be familiar with each other and my 1st day of work wouldn't be so chaos . o far she's doing fine. It never crossed my mind that being apart with Ayra is so hard. I weeped the moment I left the babysitter's door closed, huaa. Alhamdulillah, I managed to find a babysitter for Ayra within my workplace, (staff quarters) she is my staff's wife, so during work, Ayra is just literally walks away from my office, means during lunch I can visit my baby! I hope there'll be no problem after this, syukur sangat dpt babysitter dekat2.. I even think of fixing a baby cot in my office! Xmau jauh2!

Its gonna be my routine every morning from now on....

Mulut jadi popcorn lepas balik dari nanny!

Happy 1st Anniversary

Exactly one year ago, we had a beautiful wedding, now we are having a beautiful marriage and a daughter, to the guy I had a crush on then, and the man I look up to now, happy 1st anniversary, may our love blossoms more for each other everyday! You are the best decision I have ever made in my life and I hope it'll always be.  Thank you for simply being a wonderful man.

Ayra's First Flight

We are now in KK!! Ayra definitely has a lot to tell about her first flight! Significant for her as her first and the fact that we are delayed or more to stranded at the airport for a good 7 hours, and surprisingly it was by MAS. The flight's delay was announced right after we entered the departure and that was when our waiting game began. You know the delay was bad when they began to ask you to claim meal coupon and so did we. Initially we were informed the flight will take off at 10:40am, (original time is 9am) then, continuous announcement made until we embarked at 2pm after being informed that there was a technical mishap with our aircraft and we had to wait for a substitute.

Ayra's been a very good girl along the way, she only woke up for nenen and nappy change. Nappy changing room in KIA was miserable, please2 do something about it, they treated it like a store room where I could find mop and pail inside, euwww! And KKIA nappy changing room isn't pleasant as well, it has no matress, pity Ayra :( But this girl of mine was in a very good mood when she was in the flight. She napped all the way and woke up right after the aircraft hit the pad. Like seriously, maybe because of the shake.

Ayra's first flight ticket

At the Airport

Nak berangkat

Nappy changing room in KKIA yang takde matress :/

Seriously berat hati nak pegi kerja and hantar Ayra ke nanny/nursery.. :(

Aidathepinkgoddess is in INTREND July '12!

I just can't believe what I see, especially amidst being busy of going back to KK, a friend tagged me in FB saying my blog had been featured in the latest INTREND July (check it out!!). More significant when it is starred as 'Pilihan Kami' , and more exciting when my Ayra Maysaa is mentioned in the article! With photo! haha..This is definitely a memorable experience for Ayra to tell when she grows up!

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

Raising Ayra

Maybe the term 'raising' is too early to be applied to me, for my daughter just reached 1 month and 8 day old today. Though such a short period, I learnt a whole lot! Like I always proclaimed, I was a self centred during my old days. Was. Everything evolved around me me me. I don't even share wardrobe with my husband. Until Ayra came into my life. And I think it's not wrong to admit I am not fond of kids and neither am I their favourite Ha  ha Ha. In the sense that I am not the type who kids will approach to play with or to ask something, probably someone they hate! haha, I am not the type who go to mothers with kids and ask to carry their babies, admiring from afar will do rather than held responsible for dropping someone else's child. Hahah 

But, having my own, with my despicable attitude, has taken its toll on me. I became scared and not confident. I have never handled a kid before what more to say baby! And neither I am the diligent one like most of first time mothers now who read all the books in the world and become expert prior the birth of their 1st child. I prefer to go with the flow. First few days of Ayra homecoming, it's Mom, Dad and Hubby who handled her. The vision of her falling down, getting hurt really scare me! Until B has gone back home and my parents had returned to work. It's only me and Ayra at home!  I tell you for 1st time mothers out there, with pride, I HAVE NO PROBLEM handling Ayra, (so far) maybe its a gift from Allah to mothers. All my fear is useless! I gave her bathe like I have done it forever. Even I myself was amazed by this, so far, I don't have any major problem 'raising' a baby. Except when she decides to become nocturnal. See, I never stayed up in my whole life, be it the most important exam, I never compromised my sleep. So this is a tad hard for me. Sometimes I gave up and passed her to my mom should I become a zombie. 

So far, Ayra is easy from month 1 of my pregnancy, she never gave me any problem up until labor, I hope she stays like this until she leaves home. Still a very small fraction of the beginning of her milestone, there's still so very much ahead to look forward for my Ayra. :)

 

Ayra 4 days old

Ayra 7 days old

Ayra 13 days old

Ayra 23 days old

Ayra 36 days old

Mommy 30 days of confinement. hahaha

Hubby's 27th Birthday

9 years ago, I had a crush on this guy and fast forward to 2012, he is now the father of my child!Fairy tale much huh? 13 June is his 27th birthday, his first birthday as hubby and wifey yet I can't be there to celebrate.  Since B's birthday is only a day away from his nephew's they decided to celebrate them together today! So, what I did was to plan with his sister to surprise him with gifts. Glad he loves them!

Happy birthday and Happy fathers' Day b! Thank you for being a wonderful husband and daddy. Believe it or not, I still have that butterfly in stomach effect whenever I see you (especially when you pick me up from airport after I return from travelling)! ;p I love u so much, I always do, and I wanna grow old with you! Muahs. Syukur at 27, you're a Muslim, you got a job, a child and of course an awesome wife! hahahaha!

These are the most I can do

Nice bouqet!, credit to Kakak for the awesome kawtim!

My Struggle with Ayra's Jaundice and I hate pantang

Every mommy would agree if I say handling babies with jaundice is such a tedious task. For my case it's prolonged jaundice! Ayra's jaundice episode began as early as day 3. OUR BIGGEST MISTAKE is we did not refer her to the Mother and Child clinic (how can I overlooked the fact that I need to register toKlinik Kesihatan after I was discharged?!?!). We chose to self treat. B retrieved her blood everyday and sent them directly to the lab. Ayra's SB level increased up to 15! So, we took another WRONG step, we rented (rasa kaya) blue light from Klinik Astana for a ridiculous RM80 per day. Ayra was laid under the blue light for three days, then B had to go back to KK, means no one was there to retrieve and monitor her blood. Honestly saying, I was close to depression during that time, mentally and physically painful. 

After the phototherapy, Ayra's SB level showed decrease but still high, 11-12. But the trend was decreasing.  During the last day of her phototherapy I had to ask favor from my doctor friend in GH to take her blood, yes, her SB decreased. Short relief, we tried everything to treat her, Goats milk, green grapes, sensei, ambuyat (sago),  I even delayed my supplement intake to assist her recovery. Talking about mother instinct, three days later, I decided to check her SB again after seeing her sleeping all day and very passive. (signs of jaundice), my horror emerged. Ayra SB level rebound! Being a typical mother, it worried me to hell. I felt so stressed, Ayra had been poked so many times, not again! But I have no choice! So, with guilt I went to Klinik Kesihatan (all this while I thought we only need to register at Klinik Kesihatan for the 1st month jab). I took her blood at Gribbles and went to the clinic for 5 appointments! From day 13 until today Day 28, she is finally discharged! 

Honestly, my control measure for her jaundice is BF. I became sick of all the tips and petua I became pessimistic towards them, So I stopped them altogether and continue to BF her contiously. I tried to make myself less stressful by .....GOING OUT. Yes, I know I am still in my confinement but what good is to confine yourself when you feel physically and mentally pressured? Only then, I felt relieved. Scientifically, there is no pantang2. It all depends on your body capacity. Don't start lecturing me on kesannya bila dah tua nanti. You eat right, you rest enough, then nothing's gonna be wrong with you bila tua, it's a prolong thing, kalau tak pernah2 jaga makan, tak pernah exercise, harapkan 40 days pantang je jaga, u expect you look good bila tua nanti??

Alhamdulillah Ayra's now discharged. Thanks to Dr Klinik kesihatan Sekama yang super gorgeous mcm model, she is something like Nasha Aziz minus the botox, he,  I love the way she dresses up, today she wears milky yellow pleated dress, last week she wore mint dress with golden belt with platform, cantiknyaa! harap2 Ayra terkenan. hehe... On top of all, she is kind, kalau jahat, automatically tak cantik. hehe Syukur2... To mommies with prolonged jaundice babies, I can feel you, be patient and stay +ve :)

kesian Ayra, so yellow.